DEEP BREATHS – MOVE ON
Grief is a double edged sword. Yesterday felt like repeated thrusts to the heart. Focusing on what has been lost. That ‘why did it happen to me’ feeling. Everything reminded me of the loss. That video. Sad songs. Radio advertising – anything from where to go for your romantic Christmas meal to the perfect present for your loved one. Her favourite painting. Her favourite cat. That empty bed.
The walk, the wet walk did help a bit. It did help me get focused and ready for our son.
Today I’ve experienced the other side of the grief sword. The positive side. Now the focus is on how privileged I am. Even someone like me was able to experience 16 golden years. Romance. So many happy memories. A beautiful, perfect son. Grief is really everlasting love. That is something which can’t be lost.
A Dad trying to cope with the loss of his Partner and becoming a single parent. 
Blessings to you this Christmas.! Yes, grief is everlasting love. Beautifully said!
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Thank you. Hopefully it is.
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Blessings upon blessings shower you, my friend❤️ The holidays are terribly torturous when pain is so fresh. Right now, I’m sending my warmest tightest hugs.
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The hugs are greatly appreciated. Just got to focus on fun for our son.
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Praying for you and your son and sending you warm thoughts and hugs.
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Thank you and hugs are greatly appreciated
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What an excellent way to look at it!!
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I hope it is. Thank you
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“Grief is really everlasting love. That is something which can’t be lost.”
THAT IS SO VERY BEAUTIFUL!
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😊 Thank you so much
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Grief is double edged sword, it indeed is. Blessings to you and your son my friend, blessings!
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Thank you so much. Greatly appreciated
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It’s my pleasure
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Wow. 16 years. I WISH I could’ve had something like that.
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Still time.
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Not for me. ‘A great love’ I have never experienced…
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We can look at life and see either misery or things to be thankful for. You are reaching the stage where you are finding things to be grateful for.
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I do hope so. Maybe the pain makes the gratefulness all the more special. 😊
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It opens our hearts to feel more. And also, if you’re looking at it pragmatically, to appreciate more.
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It does. 😊 Thank you
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You’re welcome
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I am sooo sorry…I can’t even begin to imagine…Is this the first Christmas without her?
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Not quite. But it’s still raw. Don’t be sorry I was lucky to have met her.
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Your perspective is stellar. Bless you!
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Thank you so much 😊
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Ah, the lesson that life is never one thing. I wonder if there is a less painful way to learn this than losing someone you love. Try shifting your thinking from moving on to moving forward. I found that helped me a lot.
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Thanks will try.
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So well put, Dad. Christmas can be very tough
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But it still has the potential to be good as well.
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You will make it so
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I will certainly try.
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Such blessings even if you are grieving. We become stronger in the process.
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🙏 Thank you
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Beautifully put.
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Thank you
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Christmas is a double-edged sword as well – I’m sure a lot of people find it a trial in one way or another. However, I’m glad that you can appreciate the positives 😊
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I think you have to at least try.
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Well, definitely for your son but also for yourself…
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Thank you.
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Thinking of you and sending air hugs to you and your son -really loved the thought “Grief is really everlasting love. That is something which can’t be lost.”
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Thank you so much. The air hugs are really really gratefully received. I think that’s the best way to look at grief. Maybe one day our son will start to see it the same way.
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Yes, double edged sword, roller coaster, spiral, sphere, etc. grief is so many things. Thank you for sharing.
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Thank you for reading.
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So good you can see the positive side too.
Wishing you a lovely Christmas with your son.
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Thank you so much. The same to you.
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Christmas is a time to reflect on our loved ones no longer to be hold in our arms. Yes, that sweet, bitter emptiness. Wanting to feel their skin. Yes, it’s happening to you, my dear. Then there comes a time to let go. In grief we, us mortal have to surrender to our love one and allow her to pass on to the next dimension. For grieving denies our love one to go on their journey. Your journey is now different – you will never be the same again. You will be reborn and sent on a different path. Stop smelling the roses learn about you, then a bud grows to cherish again. Peace👼
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Thank you. It is a different path. But one I must travel. If it was just me then I would on Christmas Day head for a quiet mountain top and reflect. With a young son I need to find my party hat for a few more years.
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I do regret Nick and I never having a child together. We lost one to miscarriage.
I feel such emptiness when I think about that.
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So sorry.
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So am I.
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I’m sorry for your loss. For whatever reason I just saw a follow on my blog and noticed your title blog…it caught my eye and I’ve been reading your stuff for the past 30 minutes….bless you. I’m struggling with depression of which I will write about soon enough and this brought me to tears….and yet, I find myself grateful right now….your ending to this piece was powerful beyond words…thank you. Please keep writing.
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Thank you so much for taking the time to read this. I don’t know why I didn’t find your site sooner. Just read your blog ‘Three times a special needs child the perfect thing’. It is just beautiful.
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Thank you for the read. I’ll continue to read your posts…they’re so timely.
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Thank you
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I am sorry for your loss. Grief is indeed a double edged sword, and we all react differently. I don’t see Time so much as a healer, but something that smooths away the rough edges of the pain to make it bearable.
This is our first Christmas without my Mum. She’s forever with me though, every time I look in the mirror she looks right back. I find comfort in that she is with my Dad now.
Best wishes for Christmas to you and your son.
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This will be my third Christmas without my mum and partner. Yes lots of memories. Some sad but increasingly many happy.
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How sad for you to lose both the same year. I have a lot of happy memories and sometimes it’s something daft that brings them to mind. It’s good to have them.
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It was a rough 6 weeks that year. But at least we have memories – some sad some good.
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That’s good. And you have your son too.
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Most important thing.
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🙂
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Damn, this was me yesterday, lost in memories of my own childhood and knowing my kids wouldn’t hear my dad, their grandfather, joke and laugh and chase and race until Heaven. Cried in the car and all. But I can share what pieces of him are in me with them, and that is still a beautiful blessing to be thankful for. x
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It is a beautiful blessing. Yes a lot of crying has happened in cars. Hope you are smiling today. x
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I am. x
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That’s so good. x
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Wonderful post. There is no grief where there was no love, they are the two sides of every heart..🙏🙏
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They are. Thank you
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This is beautiful. Thank you.
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Thank you for reading it.
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