I thought I would check my phone to see if I could find a photo for today’s post. But what did I find. Without help (and rather sadly) I can say it’s Dratini with his Pikachu backing band. I honestly can’t remember taking this yesterday. Yet son is claiming no responsibility for this and the other 12 Pokemon related pictures. So clearly it must have been me. I must be going barking mad……
It’s been one of those ‘It feels like the walls are slowly closing in on me’ days. Even the walk failed to lift my spirits. No chance conversations on a day that I could have really used one. But anyway I managed to put my game face on for the return of the school bus. It’s something I’ve learnt to do pretty well. We had a laugh as he ribbed me about the ongoing carnage which is my football team. I was good on the outside, not so good on the inside….
So I was not starting from a position of inner strength when our son out of the blue said
“I really wonder if I have depression. I’ve heard that it can be common with people who have Aspergers. I didn’t think it would be me but life does seem tough for me most days”
He is only 12. It was another one of those parenting wasn’t supposed to be like this moments.
Its easy to forget what he’s been through in those few years. School really doesn’t help. At least it’s only 3 weeks until they break up for the summer holidays. That will help. We have started the ‘fill a jar with red and green sweets exercise’ again. Every time our son has a good moment he puts a red sweet in the jar. If he has a bad moment then he puts a green sweet in the jar. It’s a great way of assessing his relative mood. Hopefully as in previous cases we get more good sweets than bad sweets.
I really do worry that my depression is also rubbing off on him. That just would not be acceptable. I’m unlikely to be fixed any time soon so will get my best game face ready. I will redouble my efforts to ensure that he has great fun during this weekend. Let’s get the jar stacked with red sweets. Saturday morning he wants to do some Pokemon Go hunting. That will be more odd looking photos on my mobile. You have been warned for next week blog photos.