Looking through a few flower photos and guess what I found. Another appearance from our friendly garden visitor. This unexpected find brought a much needed smile.
The unexpected hospital visit was tough. It was physically and mentally tough for our son. Hospitals are not pleasant places at the best of times but during a pandemic. Just awful.
It was a routine procedure but it made me face some demons. Waiting for news in the building where my mother died and where I found out my partner would be dead within days. Too many traumatic memories flooded back. Sat by myself in a waiting room. Yes it’s ok to cry.
Those memories and the clear unpredictability of the future made me realise what is so important to me. The things I need to cherish and make the most of. No more trying to email when talking to our son. It’s such a bad habit, you miss out on so much and son can see the lack of focus. Quality time MEANS quality time. It took something so unpleasant to clear my mind and refocus my priorities. Your never to old to open your eyes.
How is the lad today Gary?
Hospitals are not the safest of places and your boy was very brave in today’s circumstances.
And yes, when you’re sitting alone in a waiting room not knowing what’s going to happen next, it is Ok to cry. Virtual hugs to you both. ❤
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Sore but ok.
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Good to hear. Lots of TLC from dad.
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Has to be.
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Sending hugs to you both. Glad you came through it. It’s good to refocus your priorities. I think I’m going to do the same. Take care x
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So hope it works for you. x
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Hospital visits truly are horrible during this pandemic, and I can’t even begin to imagine the traumatic memories that came flooding back to you. I’m sorry for that much, but glad that good things can come out of difficult experiences. I was right, you ARE a super dad. Enjoy it. I always enjoy reading about your son. He’s a light in this world too.
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Thank you Tina. That hospital experience for you was horrible as well. x
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Yes, but it did set me on a better course. ☺
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Hopefully me as well 😀
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I hope he is fine and so are you. Take care.
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Hope you are ok x
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It is ALWAYS okay to cry!
Things like Writing The Words and the building with tape are times when the device is put away. Ben DEMANDS full focus and it was a good lesson for me to learn.😉
Sending virtual, non kootie hugs💌💌
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Much needed, thanks Angie x
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So horrible, sitting alone in a hospital waiting. Typical that you found something good came out of it. Your young lad has the most amazing Dad. The words you use to talk of him as always so touching. Hugs to you both.
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Thank you x
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I felt bad for my daughter when she accompanied me to the hospital for cancer because I was on the same floor, etc where my husband had passed away two years earlier. That was the worst part of it for me seeing her pain, remembering.
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That must have been so tough.
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It was really the worst part of all of it. Guilt does horrible things to your mind
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It really does
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Hope you have a great weekend, just the two of you – quality time.
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Looks like binge watching Disney. No bad thing.
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Definitely not! Sounds a great way to spend the weekend. I assume there will be popcorn?
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Always popcorn
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Yes it’s ok to cry! I hope your son is feeling better today. I hope you are feeling better. And I must say this … you are a super dad! Never forget that. I felt it immediately when I found your blog and read the first post (not the first post from you but the first I read).
Now, take care and warm hugs to both of you! I hope the sun will shine tomorrow, in many ways.
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Thank you so much
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I think many had painful experiences when they realize that they were so focused on “the necessary things” or “obligations” or on wanting to check off things of their agenda. And all of a sudden you see that you neglect those who are most meaningful or that you miss the moment which never comes back. No more regrets, just being in the moment and doing one thing at a time. The price is too high! And yes, we are never too old to realize it!
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We are not. Hopefully I have started to learn.
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We all could do better than we are doing today because we are simply not aware. We mustn’t judge ourselves for that. I am sure that you are a lot further regarding this insight!
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It feels like I am getting there. Just about to start reading your book.
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That’s lobely to hear. I hope it gives you some inspirational inputs, Gary😊
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Already has. From what I’ve seen of the reviews and the first 30 pages it is exactly what I need given where I am currently.
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You know, that made me smile from one ear to the other. Blessings, Gary.
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So pleased. x
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It’s certainly making me think. It’s also given me plenty of those – the penny has finally dropped moments.
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That is what I hoped to achieve with that book. When I was in the beginning of discovering a world beyond the my minds prison I had so many puzzle pieces in my hands but did not know how to put them together or there were some connection pieces missing. Those moments when the connection happened and the picture became clearer and bigger were amazing!
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I wonder where that book would have taken you if you had gone down the route of your life story. x
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Those books (most of all those of Wayne Dyer) have stimulated a process I cannot reverse anymore. The awareness that life is a string of moments like stepstones which takes us further piece by piece. Them more aware we are the more pieces we discover and collect and the more patient we become because we know that when we are ready, we will be able to put them together. Until then we simply need to move on…
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According to the kindle I’m 90% through you book. So get it. The feel is like I’ve been looking out a window all these years. Too happy to keep closing the blinds. Suddenly I’ve worked out the window opens and suddenly it’s a very different world.
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That’s one of the best ways to describe the feeling of realilzing that there is so much more about someone, about their lives, and about the abilities to live and create that life I have ever heard. And I so get you! I was I was exaclty the same. One day those “protective” walls become suffocating and the idea of a world beneath it (a world so much bigger and full of possibilities and options) so liberating. A feeling of being newly born. You confirm Wayne Dyer’s favorite quote of Einstein: “When you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change!”
I am happy, humbled, and thankful that the content of the book has taken you to that place of seeing a further. You have me smiling again, Gary 😊
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I’m so pleased. The way of thinking can be applied to so many areas. Including depression, grief. x
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That’s exactly the point. It is about (re-)programming our minds. It seems difficult in the beginning but it is only a matter of persistence and discipline and a change can be acchived within few days!
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It certainly doesn’t take long when you commit
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Absolutely, Gary! It is just that we cannot imagine and that keeps many from trying it seriously.
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That’s so true.
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Life places many demands on us and it can be hard to always focus on what really matters. Sometimes we need a reminder. Glad hospital is over and you’re both back home.
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It does, thank you.
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You’re so right. Sending you all the best and even more popcorn for your Disney weekend. 🙂
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Thank you
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Your Visitor has good taste
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They do.
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I’m sorry for all you’re going through but happy you got some good from it.
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Thank you.
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So sorry you had to face that along with fear for your son. May you both recover from the trauma. Sending love!
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Thank you
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Hospitals are not pleasant places. Especially at this moment. I hope your son is feeling better, Gary. That must have been a series of traumatic flashbacks. Sending you love and hugs from afar.
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It was a very long day.
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