I was with my sole mate for 17 years. We had a great life with our young son. K was the perfect mum and I was an ok dad. Life was good.
Then 6 months ago my partner goes for a routine visit to the doctor. Hours later she is in hospital for tests and one day later I’m told that she has no more than a couple of weeks to live. Four weeks later I’m picking up her ashes.
Single parent (not prepared for this) and trying to grieve (not prepared for this). I’m not sure I can do this.
Well 6 months later:
– I’m still not sure I can do this
– I still haven’t found the single parent manual
– I still haven’t grieved properly
– Still pretty rubbish at being a single parent
– Life and career still in turmoil
But
– My kid seems to be doing sort of ok
– I haven’t destroyed the house (apart from the washing machine)
– And I’m still here
World changes!! Sometimes you don’t have anything to say
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I cannot imagine.
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Oct 22nd 2016 Nick was diagnosed with Gastric Cancer. 21 months later, I held his face in my hands and told him I love him and it was OK to go. I had 21 months plus the 18 months leading up to the finally figuring out what was going on.
I still wasn’t prepared.
I had 23 years with him.
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I’m so sorry.
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I am so sorry.
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Thank you.
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Thank you Rue. This is been a rough ride but writing in here helps so much.
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I am so sorry.
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Thank you
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What an incredibly raw deal for all three of you – and the grandparents. I hope plenty of help and support is offered to both of you left behind, and that you take up those offers.
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Thank you.
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