The weather today was wonderful. Warm and still. Countryside filled with fantastic deep colours. Even the dog was almost behaving himself. It should have been a walk to saviour.

Yet a my head was blocking the surroundings out, to busy lost in worries:

– son starting new school, have I got everything ready, I must have forgotten something from the school list, will his uniform fit, will he make friends, will he get bullied, have I got the wrong start day…..

– we haven’t had a holiday in 2 years, I must be a bad parent….

– what happens to my son if I become ill…..

– is it time to have that chat about Santa Claus…..

– am I leaving it too long in getting round to spreading my partners ashes…

– are we spending too much money….. am I working enough hours……

– the lawnmowers broken, can we afford to buy a new one this month….

– did I turn the oven off …. did I lock the front door……

And on and on and on it went. Virtually the whole beautiful walk blocked out by my worries. Then the realisation that I had not spoken to my son in over an hour. Luckily he seemed really happy, walking the dog.

“Are you ok, son?”

“Fine dad”

“What are you thinking about

“What might have happened if the Planet of the Apes was based on a different animal. Currently trying to work out if Planet of the Pugs would make more money than Planet of the Budgies”

……………………………………….

So hopefully I’ve learnt my lesson. Try to live the moment rather than worry about things. There is probably a time and a place for these worries, but it’s not on a beautiful walk.

I missed out on todays Planet of the Apes debate but I’m certainly not planning on missing out on next weeks now booked debate about alternatives to Pirates of the Caribbean.

10 thoughts on “Planet of the Apes

  1. I have so much compassion for your situation. I can’t imagine how any single parents (so terribly sorry for your loss, love) raise children on their own. It’s enough to care for yourself, not? I will keep you in my prayers, and it sounds like you are doing a fabulous job parenting. HUGS.

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  2. This post made me smile 🧡 a beautiful step in the healing process; focusing on the beauty that remains. May you have many more walks and debates with your son on movie alternatives , never doubt you’re doing an amazing job as his dad.

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  3. Very cool post! Yes, our kids bring out the truths of life. I also raise my sons as a single parent, so you are not alone. I think too much, and concern myself with all of the “what if’s”, too. The Lord helps me to keep things in perspective ❤️ Tamara xxx

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