Autumn definitely breaking out everywhere….
The day started with me sat up in bed trying to get my head round one of those bizarre dreams. This dream jolted me awake just before the story played out.
A right racket coming from my neighbour’s garden had me heading outside. I bump into the disgraced wrestling promoter Vince McMahon who he is clearly dressed for manual labour also carrying a hammer and chisel. I ask him what on earth he’s doing in the next garden and get a one word reply “Stonework….”. Bemused at why a Fallen American Wrestling Billionaire is doing stonework in a small Yorkshire Garden, I ask WHY… The growled response “I can’t tell you”. The dream ends….
The day ended up being like so many other days, seemingly sleepwalking through the day. Basically functioning in autopilot mode. Doing things like I always do them. Doing things without thinking. Never stopping to ask
What am I doing?
Why am I doing it?
Am I doing the right thing?
Am I doing it for the right reasons?
Is it working?
Are there better ways of doing it?
But I just switch off and plod on. All the more worrying is that in reality I am deeply flawed. Too reliant on my questionable judgment. I make mistakes, I get lots of things wrong. I have little faith that my autopilot mode will safely land the plane. So why do I way too often just switch off and let it randomly fly. Maybe it’s the reason I so often feel like life is drifting aimlessly, the bucket list of must do adventures keeps on growing without any items getting crossed off as completed.
Back to that weird dream. I initially just assumed that Vince McMahon didn’t tell me why he was working in my neighbours garden just because he was being secretive, protecting his business. But hang on, maybe “I can’t tell you” means he is just as bemused as me, he doesn’t know why he’s doing it. Is he flying autopilot as well.
A Dad trying to cope with the loss of his Partner and becoming a single parent. 
I think it’s a result of having so many anxieties, so much to worry about and I’m afraid it’s a part of most people’s lives in this modern age. We do things by rote because our minds are elsewhere. But I think you should not be so self-critical.❤️
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that is very true. Because of the distractions I’m often looking at the wrong things ❤️
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Many times in life we feel we are in automatic and it’s fine, it’s perfectly fine and quite acceptable.
As for dreams, you know my thoughts on that by now:
It’s just our minds playing the roll of naughty pixie, using the library of thoughts to make up a story, by ripping paragraphs from this book and that, memories of reality or fiction, gluing the thing together higgledy piggledy and laughing all the way. It’s just a way to keep our brain from stalling. We wake up and face another day, what we do with that day is anyone’s guess. “More tea vicar?”
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more coffee please 😂. It’s just odd that it was him, why him, he came out of nowhere.
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Yes coffee, good plan if it wasn’t 00:52 in the morning and I can’t sleep. As for the bloke, it’s all part of the pixie playing silly buggers in the brain library, see, here is Vince laughing at the story line:
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I think Gary that in the overload brain state we all are in these days, we seldom do things mindfully. As long as there’s no major catastrophe, it’s fine
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I do worry about the things or opportunities I miss.
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It’s okay, we all are doing this.
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Ha. Good recovery, but the point is that you are asking those questions you say you never ask! Writing can be a wonderful means of discovery.
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it is, it’s one of the few times that I do start to think and shut out the noise.
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We all just drift along at times
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I think we do
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Sounds like you’re experiencing a burnout, Gary.
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just a bit…
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Life us sometimes about ‘just plodding on’ and I believe there is a genuine courage and dignity in so doing. That said, I finally stepped off the Senior management treadmill this Summer. Who knows how I will survive on September’s much reduced pay packet…will keep you posted ! x
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a friend of mines wife stepped back from a senior position and took a much less demanding or financially rewarding job. She has been ill for years and struggling. Yes the money is tight now but she has got much of her health back. She doesn’t miss the senior stuff at all now. ❤️
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that is definitely a weird dream to have! Hoping today is a better day!
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I hope he’s gone from my dreams permanently ❤️
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Much more interesting than my dream, in which I was trying to park my car in Lincoln.
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that sounds like a stress filled dream. I sometimes dream of parking in a strange city then not being able to find it again.
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I love when dreams work themselves out like that… your brain couldn’t tell you cause it hadn’t thought that bit out yet. At least you got a response! I always wake up immediately after asking a question. But I never have celebs in my dreams. The backgtound vharacters in my dreams are always people I knew in elementary school and haven’t seen since I was around 12 yrs old… dunno why.
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I just don’t want him in my dreams again…
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You have a lot on your plate, Gary, so sometimes it’s ok to switch on the autopilot to get through the day. Be kind and gentle with yourself.
I also hope you can park the plane somewhere one day and do something to cross an item or two off your list too! 🙏
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I think we all need to occasionally park our plane somewhere nice and fun. ❤️
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I think this post/comments inspired a dream this morning: misc stuff, discussed Kevin Costner, someone asked his age… guessing 70-80, I googled… when my brain couldn’t answer the google search, I woke up. Then I googled it IRL. He’s 69.
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wow 69 I thought he was older than that
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So it’s not just me. Costner seems older!
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