The hustle and bustle of school summer holidays is something which does not sit well with my son. Aspergers and crowds is often not a good mix. Added to this was the fact that since his mum died, the sight of happy families would often greatly upset him. Reminders of what he had lost.
But now we have some progress. Now when he sees families it often reminds him of some wonderful memories. Memories he loves to share. Good times which make him happy.
Today was almost a perfect setup for him during a walk with the mad dog. Occasionally we came across families playing in the park. Today these encounters prompted memories of holidays we shared together with his mum. All precious and warming memories. No tears just smiles.
But today it often felt like we had the park to ourselves, no hustle and bustle, just the sound of birds. Today no anxious looks over his shoulder at the swirling crowds around him. A boy at ease with his surroundings.

Days like today feel like progress days. Often it seems like you get good days and bad weeks. Dark periods seem to go on forever. But when you do get a good day it reinforces the importance of trying to keep moving forward.
How lovely to be able to share treasured memories together.
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This is so uplifting to read. You are both going through so much trying to move forward and adapt. I am so glad to read you had a good day. (-)
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I have been reading through your blog which is very poignant, courageous and touching. I am so sorry for your loss and pain. Though no longer present physically those we have lost are always with us and the many memories.
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This is so beautiful. Your blog touches my heart. Thank you for finding me – I’m so glad you visited. Welcome & be in touch anytime. Sending you and your son many blessings.
Debbie
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Thank you so much
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I hope that as I continue to read, you have started using her name.
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When I asked my son if he was ok with me starting a blog about our story, he was happy with the idea but didn’t want his mums name used. It’s really difficult having to remember not to use her name.
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Then use her middle name. But give her a name. Make her real.
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