See the sun does shine in Yorkshire – occasionally.

How can baking be so hard. Everything seemed to be going so well and then you end up with very odd shape bread. One day, one day.

Maybe I can blame these baking woes on a lack of sleep. At least it ended up tasting ok. So it’s kind of a result.

I was sat drinking my herbal tea and having my misshapen bread with some hummus. Really, is this what life has become….. sudden urge for proper coffee and a sausage roll. But that is life currently for me. I might wish for something else but circumstances dictate otherwise. Wow that feeling could cover so many things. But at that precise moment my eyes wandered to a book on the table. A book about Ski Jumping. One small dream is remembered.

I have always wanted to go to and see just one Ski Jumping competition. Have never got round to doing that. Circumstances have repeatedly prevented that. Now as a single parent with a son who struggles to get to the front gate of the house, those circumstances seem to be even more insurmountable. Another winter will pass. It’s definitely not happening this season. Maybe not for a number of years.

Yes it’s a little deflating but don’t get me wrong. That dream hasn’t died. It’s still there. Still cherished. The future still offers hope. Just have to deal with the here and now. In all likelihood autumn and winter will see no real change in our circumstances. The next 6 months will be largely restricted to our house and garden. Very few social encounters. Single parenting day in day out. More days of dodgy bread and hummus lunches. But it is what it is. Will just deal with that. But I won’t forget those special dreams. That what keeps me going.

80 thoughts on “The shape of bread to come

  1. You sat on the bread didn’t you!? πŸ˜‚ Bread doesn’t make a very good chair. You wanted to do more hedge trimming? Maybe add a few more inches to your hieght. What does that make you now. 6′ 2″ ? πŸ˜€ I can’t think of what you say about the rest. The bread got me laughing. πŸ˜€

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      1. πŸ˜€ Yes, these are good questions. Alas I have no bread in the house. Nothing bready really. Not even cookies. I ate them all. Oh, we might have some pancake batter. Of course hot pancakes would be challenging. Better to let them cool first. πŸ˜€

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      2. Oh, life is all doom and gloom without cookies. Had fries recently. Too much icecream too. Andrew managed to get some in the house. πŸ˜€ Then he said I was eating it too fast. He was just afraid he wouldn’t get any. πŸ˜€ It could happen with me around. I ate all my candy too. He went to grab some and it was all gone. I said “Too late!” πŸ˜‚ He laughed.

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      3. He must be tired… that definitely doesn’t sound like English… 😁 Oh wait… Tina is English. I understand that word. I’ve been called that word all my life. Much better than other name calling. 😁


  2. That’s right! I have not only a dream, but a PLAN… I’m going to run away from home in 10 years… maybe less. I figure by then, Ben will be settled or at least getting settled into his “adult” life and I can run away and go wherever I want, do whatever I want and just have FUN! A geriatric vagabond πŸ˜‰

    And who cares what your bread looks like?! It looks like yummy to me!πŸ’ŒπŸ’Œ

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  3. What you have to be careful of is when you build your sandwich – that you keep the peaks and valleys going the same way :-). Bread looks great! That is a great dream. I am sure you will get there one day and it will be wonderful!

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  4. YES. You need to keep those special dreams. Bit by bit those dreams do get closer.

    One dream came–I now have full-time work at home! It’s something our family needed, and for that I’m excited. Balancing full-time work with schooling the kids will be…interesting, and full-time and writing will be…interesting. But we find ways to make it work: dodgy bread, virtual classes, and all. We just need to keep each other going as best we can, because together we we’ll find those dreams. xxxxxxxxxxx

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  5. I bet the bread was yummy, despite the misshapen loaf. Is Lake Placid, New York in your book? One of my sisters in law grew up there and I’ve been fortunate to visit their massive ski jumps there (in summer). As much as I loved to hit small jumps when I was a young spry skiier, the huge jumps scare me. But so fun to watch when people fly off them.

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  6. Your bread was just trying to flatten out in preparation for the hummus. Before I was married and had kids I lived and worked in the Middle East for several years. I taught English to Iraqi refugee kids. Every lunch break was flat/pita bread and hummus. There in the desert of Jordan was probably the furthest I could get from a ski jumping competition but the desert had a beauty all it’s own. I think the hummus is jinxing your alpine peaks dream, lol.

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  7. Great atmosphere at ski jumping competitions. I love the smell of gluewein and sausages just as the daylight starts to fade, the lights go on and it starts to snow. Of course, it looks way more terrifying live than on the tv. You’ll get there, one day.

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  8. Personally, I don’t care a damn what shape bread is! It’s admirable that you make it. I certainly couldn’t and even my multi talented mum couldn’t make a very good job of it. Ski jumping…I think it is the most exciting winter sport. Matti Nykanen, 1988. Wow.

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  9. Ski jumping is one of my favorite events at the Winter Olympics. When it comes to dreams, here’s my English translation of a verse from the poem “Begin Again” by Brazilian poet Braulio Bessa who I’m featuring on my Poetry Corner September 2019 at

    When hopelessness
    decides to whip you,
    if everything that is real
    is hard to bear…
    It is time to start over.
    Begin TO DREAM again.

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  10. I haven’t made bread for years though I used to make it all the time. I used to make tea biscuits, too. They were usually quite good, but sometimes had rather funny shapes. And one time I made several batches one day and ended up forgetting to put in the baking powder. Somewhat hard, I’m afraid. So I had to make yet another batch because I had a different place for each batch to go. I think I made 4 batches of a dozen each that day.

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