Yorkshire has its moments on the peaceful walk front….

This walk had a definite start and end, the Car Park. Some journeys don’t have that luxury so how do you ever know when it’s nearly over.

It’s odd, I usually love this time of year. The AUTUMNAL colours, the freshness, the tranquil peace after the packed summer crowds – the new season arrives and we had this beautiful location virtually to ourselves.

Yet this year there is also a feeling of unease and melancholy. The shorter days, longer nights and yes, the feeling of increased isolation. Even family and friends seem just that little bit further away. I definitely feel significantly less prepared for that isolation this time around AND ITS NOT a surprise. For over a decade the focus has been on Hawklad and School. It brought purpose, provided goals to aim for, even provided a few too many battles to fight. Plans all had a set date, Summer 2023. All this was way more pressing than any feelings of isolation but now that date is history. The Plans worked but are now completed.

What happens next for Hawklad is taking longer to sort out than expected.

Currently life without Plans or more accurately, life while new Plans are still yet to be formulated. Without that immediate focus I’m kinda feeling in limbo. With me LIMBO is letting the mind wander off into feelings of isolation and melancholy. At this rate I might even have to sort out some stuff about my future, it’s been so long it feels like I have forgotten how to do that. At least when we know what Hawklad’s path is, focus will return.

But this time around, I also need to work on some plans of my own.

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  3. After the hectic years of navigating school and parenting, quiet now falls into your hours. Understandably, it needs getting used to. One thing I’ve learned is that whatever you need to know, whatever you need to do, will come gently and in its time.
    It will not be hurried, though.

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  6. Your contemplative post struck a chord with me. Autumn is indeed a season of mixed emotions, with its enchanting colors and serene atmosphere, yet it can also bring a sense of melancholy and reflection. I hear you on the changing dynamics of the season and the feeling of increased isolation.

    The transition from well-defined plans and goals to a more uncertain phase can be disorienting. It’s like stepping into uncharted territory where the path ahead isn’t quite clear. It’s natural for your mind to wander and ponder on various thoughts, including feelings of isolation and uncertainty.

    However, it’s also an opportunity for something new to emerge, both for Hawklad and for you. Sometimes, when we find ourselves in a state of limbo, it’s a chance to rediscover passions, set new goals, and embark on fresh adventures. Your future might look different from what you’ve been used to, but it can be just as exciting and fulfilling.

    As Hawklad’s path unfolds, it’ll provide a renewed sense of purpose and direction. In the meantime, don’t forget to take some time for yourself and explore what passions and dreams may have been waiting in the wings. Who knows what exciting plans and opportunities lie ahead?

    Wishing you clarity, inspiration, and the courage to embrace this season of change. 🍁✨

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  8. You are such an amazing human, Gary. Doing this on your own – for yourself and for Hawklad – is such a feat. While it can feel isolating, I hope you take this transition period to rest and recharge yourself. It will all get sorted out for both you.

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  9. Those are wonderful photographs. I can understand how you feel, having achieved the goal you were focused on for so long. An anti-climax can leave you disoriented. It’s probably best to enjoy a small break and wait for a plan to formulate. I am sure it will and yes, you must think of yourself too.

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  10. Gary I do understand all to well how you are feeling.My situation is different. ..but the isolation that is coming is is so real. This Autumn has not been its best. The thing is we have to keep moving forward.but at a one-day-at-a-time thing.And take things has they come. I think life has taught us both that.Get out as much as you can .Being out in nature helps the fears and anxiousness so much .Hugs and always here❤️

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  13. Those pictures are great. Autumn is usually a time of settling back into routines laid out by school schedules, so it makes sense that this time around you feel less grounded than usual. I hope you get some things figured out soon so you can start to make plans. The waiting is hard.

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  14. That is such a beautiful walk. 🥰 I hope you aren’t feeling so melancholy now. I hope you can dream and make some plans of your own, and that this limbo phase will pass quickly for you. Take care of yourself Superdad. ❤

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