One of my Running trail runs is tough. It’s a muddy slog through increasingly thick woods. It’s a slow claggy run climbing through undergrowth that sees only glimpses of the sun. It’s very claustrophobic. Your on your own. A little voice keeps telling you to just stop. Why am I doing this. One step forward, two back.
But with patience and effort the going becomes easier. The ground levels out. The cover starts to thin and the distant view begins to reveal itself.
Then your out. The openness is initially disorientating but it’s been so worth the struggle.
Then a reluctance. A moment of doubt. Need to turn your back on the openness and head back into the dark. The way is back through the woods.
This trail run reminds me of our life these days. I head into the working week with trepidation. Too much to do and not enough time. Self doubt is king. Often so little direction and so much frustration. It feels like you are against the world. Battling uphill through mud. Our Son heads into 5 days of mainstream school. So little help. Fighting on his own. Not sure why he is doing this. It’s an alien world. You just have to keep plodding on but then Friday comes. Our hopes and spirits build. Then you arrive at the weekend. For two sweet days life improves. The week’s slog and struggles are forgotten. But so quickly it’s late Sunday and you face the trepidation of the upcoming week and the return to the darkness.
So we move on. The week calls and maybe so does the woodland trail. That’s our life cycle.