Sometimes it’s the little things….

I’ve just started my fifth year on my grief journey. A journey I would must definitely would rather had not started but now I’m on it, well I might as well make the best of it. And that’s what I am trying to do. For several years it was a nightmare. Just awful. But over time things have slowly moved on. Now it’s definitely good weeks and bad days.

I still get so many reminders of the process I am going through. Many of those are repeated experiences but every so often I still find new reminders.

I was checking the garden for things I could harvest for tonight’s meal and I came across these small tomatoes. Then a thought struck me. There was a time when this was not something I would do. Yes I would grow the tomato plants but that was it. My partner loved tomatoes. She would go out every day I see what could be picked and eaten right there and then. Those days have gone and now the ripe fruit sits and waits for me. That thought made me sad. But life has to go on. Hawklad would like a few fresh tomatoes on his plate. He currently doesn’t feel comfortable touching items outside so it’s down to me. Life goes on. Pick some tomatoes, think of my partner then it’s time to get on with living. Time to focus on the here and now. Find happiness in the world around me. It is most definitely there.

57 thoughts on “Tomatoes

  1. Yes, happiness is most definitely still there. I don’t really like raw tomatoes. ๐Ÿ˜ I absolutely hated tomatoes as a kid. I can stand them if they’re hidden in something, like a burger. I do enjoy them cooked. But raw…. my taste buds never relented on that one. ๐Ÿ˜€

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  2. This line
    “Now itโ€™s definitely good weeks and bad days.”
    makes me smile BIG BIG!๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ’ƒ๐Ÿผ๐ŸŒˆ๐Ÿ’ซ

    I do miss going out to the garden and picking berries or little tomatoes and popping them straight in my mouth. Warm and tasty… like eating a bit of sunshine.

    It’s good that you’re keeping her memory alive for you and Hawklad, and it’s better that you’re continuing to LIVE and make new memories together. ๐Ÿ’Œ๐Ÿ’Œ

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      1. For some things… the biggest problem we have is water. Our water bill tripled when we had our big garden. And blueberries take a LOT of water! Our carrots came out all funky looking and our potatoes were really small.๐Ÿคท๐Ÿผโ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿ’Œ๐Ÿ’Œ

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  3. I adore fresh tomatoes. Not as much as I adore popcorn and chocolate. I like the idea that her memories reach out to you in small ways. Itโ€™s kind of comforting I guess, sad but comforting that the memories donโ€™t fade. X

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      1. Itโ€™s been a tough week with the broken arm, trip to A&E, ongoing work stuff and now everyone at home has a cold. Just gave in this afternoon and have done nothing since. Binge watched tv in my bed. Is that bad?

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  4. Must make you feel good to be resourceful and harvest food from your garden for your meals. Itโ€™s a healthy sign…youโ€™re not merely surviving, but making the most out of what life has to offer right now. ๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ’•


  5. Mushrooms make me think of my great grandmother โค๏ธ my very first loss

    My dadโ€™s hobby was gardening – he grew lettuce and squash and tomatoes, pumpkins etc / he always had tricks to keep deer away โœŒ๏ธ

    And I always remember going to pick blueberries in Maine or pumpkins here during Halloween ๐ŸŽƒ… I have also been to and loved apple orchards โค๏ธ I live in wine country so there are vineyards everywhere!!!


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